Over the past two years, I began a journey in fitness and health. Now, before you get too far ahead and think I am going to talk about weight loss, let me immediately say, this isn't all about that. I was at a place that was very unhealthy- spiritually, mentally and physically. Drained. Burnt out. I had very little left in my well to draw from. It was horrible. I wanted to hide and just hope that my circumstances would change, but I knew that I would be only fooling myself. On May 30th, 2012- I finally said enough is enough and change came- in the form of moving from my home to my parents 65 acre farm to live in their camper with my five kids for the summer- until I could get on my feet.
The few years prior to that, my life quickly was spiraling into shambles. It seemed that despite any efforts, the brokenness was just that- broken. I was at an all time low emotionally and an all time high weight wise for me. The weight came with the stress and honestly the desire to just hide from the world. I couldn't stand how I felt- my blood sugar started acting a mess and I began having multiple hypoglycemic episodes where I would get anywhere from disoriented to even short term eyesight loss until my blood sugar rose again- which caused more fear. I guess that is the best way to describe my then life- fear.
Little by little and with lots of surrender to trusting and having faith (because I had nothing else left), I began the process of healing and overall health. I quickly lost a bunch of weight leading me to where I am at today. 185 lbs. Now, first of all, as you can imagine putting that number on here for everyone to read is difficult. However, it is honest. My desire to be transparent is greater than my fear of other people's opinions.
I spent the last year really focusing financially on staying a float. Raising five children without financial help is difficult but doable. My physical health took a back burner though and recently decided that enough was enough. I needed to get back on the job of working on my overall health. What good is a healthy mind and spirit if you are so exhausted that you cannot even do anything but live in survival mode?
In March, I met Cory. Cory is this super amazing man. Much like me, we both have made several wrong choices- different choices but not healthy to say the least. Immediately Cory and I knew that we were a great fit. Both of us are stubborn mules who just wont quit. lol. Sounds romantic right? Hey, I am promising transparency not romanticized stories. Honestly, I wholeheartedly believe that he was sent to me right from God. Ok, I could go on and on but you know what- Ill save that for later. Cory is also on this transparent journey with me and he has given me permission to say that he currently weighs 214. We are both, joined, together and fighting for overall health and total wellness.
I am sorry if this is a bit of a ramble. But I wanted to update you and fill you all in.
The few years prior to that, my life quickly was spiraling into shambles. It seemed that despite any efforts, the brokenness was just that- broken. I was at an all time low emotionally and an all time high weight wise for me. The weight came with the stress and honestly the desire to just hide from the world. I couldn't stand how I felt- my blood sugar started acting a mess and I began having multiple hypoglycemic episodes where I would get anywhere from disoriented to even short term eyesight loss until my blood sugar rose again- which caused more fear. I guess that is the best way to describe my then life- fear.
Little by little and with lots of surrender to trusting and having faith (because I had nothing else left), I began the process of healing and overall health. I quickly lost a bunch of weight leading me to where I am at today. 185 lbs. Now, first of all, as you can imagine putting that number on here for everyone to read is difficult. However, it is honest. My desire to be transparent is greater than my fear of other people's opinions.
I spent the last year really focusing financially on staying a float. Raising five children without financial help is difficult but doable. My physical health took a back burner though and recently decided that enough was enough. I needed to get back on the job of working on my overall health. What good is a healthy mind and spirit if you are so exhausted that you cannot even do anything but live in survival mode?
In March, I met Cory. Cory is this super amazing man. Much like me, we both have made several wrong choices- different choices but not healthy to say the least. Immediately Cory and I knew that we were a great fit. Both of us are stubborn mules who just wont quit. lol. Sounds romantic right? Hey, I am promising transparency not romanticized stories. Honestly, I wholeheartedly believe that he was sent to me right from God. Ok, I could go on and on but you know what- Ill save that for later. Cory is also on this transparent journey with me and he has given me permission to say that he currently weighs 214. We are both, joined, together and fighting for overall health and total wellness.
Cory's birthday is in 15 days and mine is today so we decided that we would begin to share our journey now. From now on, all of our weight loss and physical fitness journey will be under the tab Ezer Life. You can read about it there. I promise to share often and as honest as I can be. Like right now, I have to go and get dressed for my birthday date with Cory- shorts and a tshirt because we are working out. - No excuses!Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labor:
10 If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.
I am sorry if this is a bit of a ramble. But I wanted to update you and fill you all in.
Very admirable. God willing, your journeys toward health and spiritual/mental well-being will be successful. I know how difficult it is to continue fighting the sometimes loooonng fight, but it is worth it in the end.
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